tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post2470590146472036006..comments2023-09-23T21:31:59.988-07:00Comments on mooshkatoo: But I Don't Know if I Can...Dvora Koellinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09800456417809572290noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-91857787809351083142012-06-05T11:15:54.299-07:002012-06-05T11:15:54.299-07:00Wow, Rachel. I can't even imagine what your ex...Wow, Rachel. I can't even imagine what your experience with Gideon's birth must have been like - for you, for your husband, for everyone. I honestly think if I had been through the experience you went through with Gideon, and then found out I was having twins, I would have been incredibly scared and nervous about the birth, no matter what path it took (were you?) <br />And I know what that feeling of disappointment is like in getting a c-section when you have your heart set on a natural birth (I was crying hysterically in the moments leading up to the operation), and that letting go of the imagined and anticipated birth story. I know that if I find out I do indeed have a septate uterus, which may prevent me from having a successful natural birth, I will have to make a difficult decision like you did. It's a very tough thing to have to do.<br />I agree wholeheartedly that a c-section makes a woman no less of a mom whatsoever. It just makes you a mom with maybe a smiley face scar. :)<br /><br />Thanks so much for sharing.Dvora Koellinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09800456417809572290noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-6360982259236061452012-06-05T09:24:38.623-07:002012-06-05T09:24:38.623-07:00I had an unplanned emergency (real emergency, I wa...I had an unplanned emergency (real emergency, I was put under and woke up not knowing if I had a baby or not) c-section. My understanding is that Gideon and I each had a 50/50 shot of surviving; I required a blood transfusion after he was born. It was hard letting go of the birth that I anticipated, this magical thing that I thought would happen to me that I completely missed. With the twins, I had a hard time deciding what road to take. My doctors were willing to let me attempt to VBAC, but based on "twin b"'s position, they said that the likely conclusion would be twin a vaginally and twin b by c-section, unless they could get him to flip. I actually have a friend who just had that birth experience. But actually scheduling a c-section, for me, was just so heartbreaking and such a tough call because I really felt like a failure as a woman and a mother for having never gone through labor, let alone not having this amazing "natural" child birth story. The c was going to be at 38 weeks, due to the timing with twins, and given that Gideon was not born until 41.5 weeks and I was not in labor when he was born, I was not optimistic that I would go into labor at 38 weeks, I was right, I did not. But there was just so much pressure and I was blinded, I think, by wanting that magical birth story. I never got it, I went with the planned c-section. And I do not think I am any less of a mother because of it.rachel leahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02725043080502947559noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-71162975858837990192012-06-05T06:46:32.913-07:002012-06-05T06:46:32.913-07:00Thanks so much! I am sorry to hear your induced la...Thanks so much! I am sorry to hear your induced labor sucked (too)! I am keeping hopeful that I may be able to have a VBAC until I am told otherwise, but I would like to get that information sooner rather than later if possible... <br />I absolutely agree that the important thing is that in the end, no matter what the process, the result is a delicious baby, and that alone is much to celebrate!<br />Wishing you much happiness with your own pregnancy and labor!<br />DDvora Koellinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09800456417809572290noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-50476940486592426602012-06-04T19:53:47.106-07:002012-06-04T19:53:47.106-07:00FWIW, my induced labor SUCKED. As soon as I starte...FWIW, my induced labor SUCKED. As soon as I started the cervidil I had horribly painful contractions. Never needed the pitocin. The next 2 were not induced and although I did get the epidural with them too, it wasn't as painful as the first. So, if you can do a VBAC it might be better than the first time!<br /><br />I understand too. There was talk about doing a C-sec when this baby was sideways, and while ultimately I want to just get this baby OUT, I really just don't want to do a C-sec unless I absolutely have to. <br /><br />I hope you get the answers you're looking for! Whatever happens, happens. In the end you still have a baby. :-)Goddess Librarianhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13622554664262823997noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-64963183211731870522012-06-04T13:23:15.895-07:002012-06-04T13:23:15.895-07:00Thanks so much for sharing, Lori Ann. It sounds li...Thanks so much for sharing, Lori Ann. It sounds like we've dealt with a lot of similar emotions and experiences in our childrens' births. I think it is great that you've been able to turn around your own experience and feel grateful for the path Atticus's birth took.<br />I think and feel very similar to you.. though there is much about Em's birth that I still question and wonder about and wish could have happened in a different way, I have also been incredibly thankful for the fact that I was ABLE to give birth to my girl at all. I've often wondered what would have happened to the birth and to my daughter had the technology NOT been there to assist us. I do very much wish my body was capable of birthing naturally, and I hope that I will have the opportunity to try and do so with this second baby. But having a c-section birth with Em took nothing away from our bonding, our closeness, and our mama/daughter dynamic. I know that if push comes to shove (heh heh.. ironic wording) and I have to have a c-section with the second baby, it will still be an incredible experience that will bring me a beautiful, treasured baby. <br />And I do feel (as you do) that having to "roll with it" during Em's birth has definitely made me feel more prepared for any unforeseen events that might come up with this birth.<br />Much love and hugs. I would love to talk to you one day very soon!Dvora Koellinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09800456417809572290noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-10344375768696907932012-06-04T13:02:22.284-07:002012-06-04T13:02:22.284-07:00Atticus's birth and subsequent month at the NI...Atticus's birth and subsequent month at the NICU were not at all what I planned either. I felt cheated of my last six weeks of pregnancy - and given my emergency c-section, the birth experience I had hoped for our family. And in those early weeks, I felt at once so resentful of and yet so grateful for the machines that could do for him what my body could not. Though I still struggle with how to describe the night of his birth for his baby book (since a scene from "Carrie" seems, while accurate, not well suited for a birth story), now ten months out, I marvel in the awesomeness of birth AND technology, because had the later not been available, either would he or I. As time passes, I feel less and less cheated of the experience I missed, and more grateful for the experience I've had. I'm not sure if we'll try again for another little one - but if we do, I'll be ready for anything. And so too will you, dear sister. So too will you!Lori Annnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-63985489181607703532012-06-04T11:53:47.507-07:002012-06-04T11:53:47.507-07:00:):)Dvora Koellinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09800456417809572290noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-6743674919522695082012-06-04T11:48:59.199-07:002012-06-04T11:48:59.199-07:00Correction. During labor. I don' want the boys...Correction. During labor. I don' want the boys to get TOO excited about that one.BakingSuithttp://bakinginmybathingsuit.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-6021507239345139002012-06-04T11:32:22.767-07:002012-06-04T11:32:22.767-07:00Yeah, that would be helpful...but you know my offe...Yeah, that would be helpful...but you know my offer still stands to get naked in the tub with you! (Or I'll bring my suit again.)BakingSuithttp://bakinginmybathingsuit.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-3250961683982998182012-06-04T11:21:52.031-07:002012-06-04T11:21:52.031-07:00Thanks, doll. I WILL roll with it, fer sure. I jus...Thanks, doll. I WILL roll with it, fer sure. I just kinda wish I knew if I would be rolling UPHILL or DOWNHILL, y'know? :)Dvora Koellinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09800456417809572290noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5484983282908707575.post-1970156407209972402012-06-04T11:15:44.457-07:002012-06-04T11:15:44.457-07:00HUGS. See what happens, roll with it, I'm here...HUGS. See what happens, roll with it, I'm here for you no matter how that baby gets here. <br /><br />I know how very much you wanted a different experience for Em and hope that you can have that for Monkey.BakingSuithttp://bakinginmybathingsuit.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.com